Have you ever been in a situation where you’ve tried your best to prepare for every worst-case scenario, only to find that the one thing you overlooked is the biggest crack of all?
You should have seen my emergency kit: the obvious things like jumper cables, a flashlight, dashboard sun-visor, Purell and a first aid kit, less obvious things like duct tape, books-on-tape, a white-noise machine and tennis balls in a tube sock (try this for behind your back or under your bum on long car or rides– it does wonders!) and things that I never even touched such as a scented candle, lavender stress-relieving oil, yoga DVDs, and my AAA card. The one thing I forgot? An external hard-drive to store and back-up all my photos. I back-up on a regular basis and did so right before we left for the trip but of course didn’t remember to pack it in my bag (OF COURSE!!!)
It was on my mind to buy one on the road but it just didn’t seem important enough to take the time to do.. until I woke up in Austin and my computer screen was all blue and unresponsive. Directly to the Mac store we went.
Ultimately, everything turned out okay… but in the worst of the moments, after days of un-related computer problem after internet problem after software problem after camera problem, the idea of losing everything was just too much. And in this moment, stress-relieving lavender oil was NOT what I wanted.
It’s easy to spiral into a mess of despair (note: if you want to make everyone around you very uncomfortable, cry and don’t stop) and fervently damn the universe for not wanting you to be successful as an artist. Maybe it even helps to walk across the hall to a chain store you don’t even like and spend hundreds of dollars on things you don’t need to ease the pain. Or maybe you’re able to take a deep breath and know that shit happens, rama rama.
In any case, the moral of this story is that when things don’t go the way we expect, we forget all the other times we felt anxious, angry, sad, scared and the fact that things must have worked out afterward because here we are still. So why would we expect the future to offer us anything different? Thank you very much to the kind folks at the Barton Creek Apple store and USAA insurance for dealing with me in my least-attractive state of being, and for making everything better.
And onward to New Orleans we went.